Tuesday, 23 September 2014

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Today is a marvelous day with some pretty jolly sunlight dancing out there. I've missed it! This continuous rain has been getting extremely vexing with about 10mm more or less every day. As Mum would say, it's driving us all to distraction. Dad is desperate to get out and start spraying out for the crops, but everywhere you go is just a bog. Very dull it is!

But life goes on...and I think it's raining again....*sighs*

Not too much to update here, other than the fact it has been a busy few weeks and still it continues. I voted for the first time on Saturday - as did many of my friends. And success, National got in again. We figured John Key was the better of two evils... I've also joined the Young Farmers club here, paid the (extremely expensive) $70 fee (yeap, I'm tight with money), just so that I could apply for the scholarship the national young farmers board thingy offers. Only $1500 but hey, if I got anywhere with it, it'll go towards a good thing.
     So last night I went with Nick to my first meeting...it was....a tad boring. But that's just cos I didn't know anybody and didn't really know what they were on about. It was a regional meeting too, so about 20 of the higher up members from around the region were there. I think there are four top positions in each club? Chairman, Vice Chairman, secretary and treasurer. And then the four top positions over the whole region. Nick is vice chair in our club, so that is why we went to the meeting, had a nice dinner etc. It was OK.
     Wednesday I've got youth, Thursday night is the district meeting and Saturday is a regional game of paintball that we're going to. I've played paintball before - Nick hasn't. It'll be interesting to see if all of those years on the xBox have paid off! Lol It's gonna be an expensive week though... o.O two dinners out, plus a full day of paintball, and my car is in the doctors again -_- But good thing is that I've now saved up enough money for my teeth!

In other news, my accommodation application is "Complete", as of when I checked yesterday. So that means that I've scored myself a room in one of the three buildings I chose, without any issues otherwise I'm sure they would've contacted me, so I'm in the system! It's quite exciting.

And I've started mowing the lawns again, first time in the back section since early winter. It's just too wet out there, and seeing as it used to be a paddock, that had plenty of fertiliser, and it hasn't been grazed in over a year...it hasn't quite understood what being a lawn is? So as you can imagine....you walk out there and it's just sloshing, and the grass is knee high in places. So inch by inch every few days I go out with the lawn mower and munch a bit more. Yesterday was great cos it was howling a gale...bad thing was that it hooked one of our sheets of glass and smashed it...good thing is that it would've been drying the ground - even if just the hills. It's a start anyhow. In summer the back lawn looks fantastic, right now, a few cows would be handy!

Other good news is that I've only got two biology books left to study! Whoop whoop!!!! Totally have taken a turn for the better with school lately. I've got one internal ready to do as soon as it arrives, the other two books are also towards an internal. Things are picking up. They always do at this time of year :) Chemistry isn't as good, but hey, I'll get there, I always do. Right now I'm feeling full of positive energy and enthusiasm. Quite literally, it's weird. For instance, I get school done, I bounce around the house and decide to mow some lawns. Then I come in and do some baking. Honestly, I feel like there is something wrong with me! I haven't felt like this in months! But it's great!

The weekend had me milking at my favourite shed again, I saw my calves and they look fantabulous. They still weren't fully outside, so on Sunday morning I said to him, just get them out, you can't keep holding off forever. He knew, he agreed but said they were hiding in the shed because it was pouring with rain. I said to him to stop treating them like they're chickens, they'll be fine. They have to go out sometime!
So come Sunday afternoon, it was nice and sunny and I watched them from the yard, put the calves into the closest paddock. It was great, they were running around and throwing up their heels, doing the "heifer dance". Later I told him they looked happy and he said yep, it was on your instruction. (In other words...if it rains tonight....) Lol
They'll be fine. :)

Right now I'm hiding away, freezing my toes off in my office, looking forward to leaving town and going to Uni. Mum says I should decide sooner rather than later on what type of laptop I'll want for then. Then if I got it, I could sit in bed and do my school, rather than freeze in here - as I need to use the internet and my phone isn't the best for viewing things. But I'm a little unsure about getting a laptop, I'd rather wait until I knew that I was going, so I didn't have two computers for no reason! But right now, it is essential that I leave town in February and look at new horizons.
     Don't get me wrong, this is a great little town...but not when everyone thinks you're a catch. And when those who think that aren't too great themselves....Ugh. This person keeps texting me, and ringing, I made the mistake of answering once cos I thought it was a teacher. Now though, I've got the contact name for this number as "don't answer!". I don't reply to the texts now that I know who it is, and when he rang I said I never got the texts and that I was busy and had to go. Since then he's asked me out in a text and I thought he'd gotten the idea when I never replied...that was a few weeks ago. Until today, when he actually called the homeline wanting to talk to me. Umm, nah.
     Mum lied (thankyou Mum!!) and said I was working, and that I was going out with mates tonight (I wish lol).  I wish he'd leave me alone, I'm not one to be rude and say "I do not like you Sam I Am", but soon I'm just gonna have to...some people are very desperate and I don't deserve it! Sheesh

Dad reckons (seeing as everyone in the town is somehow related) that they're looking for new blood. *sniggers* gonna have to look elsewhere mate. So Palmerston North, the big city with lots of people is looking very inviting right now....

Tuesday, 16 September 2014

$10 Special

You know how we read about some authors, and how they wake up in the middle of the night with this storyline in their head, and they have to start writing it all down before they lose it? Well, that was me last night, laying in bed waiting for sleep to come and thinking about all this election crap and talk about government surveillance etc etc. And it got me thinking of this fabulous beginning of my newest blog post. My mind was literally spinning with ideas and such forth, so I took it upon myself to begin writing it on my phone - because I sure wasn't leaving my cosy warm bed to sit at my computer. And so it began. After a few hundred words, and the realisation that it was past 9:30, I stopped and figured that my email would save it as a draft. Finally, I went to sleep.

Well apparently my phone version of my email doesn't save drafts, so I am back to the beginning again. Darn, but hey, I'll try to make it just as good. 
Now, please don't assume that I know what I'm talking about - quite frankly, I don't really. This is just my personal opinion and ideas on the topic.

There's been so much talk and speculation about the "spying", and it's typical that it'd be brought into focus near the election, creating heaps of drama and rife between government and citizens. You know, personally I think Edward Snowden is pretty darn awesome, giving out the information like he did, but I'm just in two minds about all this possible spying.

1: What are they even achieving? Ok, so keeping an eye on the USA and other massive countries like that I can sort of understand, but New Zealand? We're so jolly small that why would they do it, and what exactly would they get out of it? Do they just video us for their own amusement and watch it on their lunch breaks? There is just so much red tape on the entire subject that it is simply too hard to keep up anyway.
     Also, it's not as if they're secretly setting up little cameras in our homes to watch how we live, we're not unusual animals who are being monitored for specific behaviours in a zoo for crying out loud. I think we should be more concerned with random unknown people around the world hacking our computers and watching us through our webcams because they've got nothing else to do.
     It would be a breach of our personal privacy if they are actually "spying" on us, there's no doubt! But the thing is, once you leave your home you're going out into the world, there is no stopping anybody from doing what they do.
     It's like photographers, take a photo in a private place such as at a home or workplace, they really need permission from the people who are in the photo. However, if they were to walk out onto a busy street in Auckland during lunch hour, they could take as many photos as they like because it is a public place. So if the Government is "spying" on us in this "public place" is it really spying anyway?

2: What information are they taking, and who are they giving it to and what is its use? It's not as if they're trying for statistics, we've got departments who do that for them legally. And there are only so many people at the top of the human body and that's the Prime Ministers, Presidents and Queen. What are all these people gonna do with our information anyway? Seriously?!

However you would get away with calling me naive when it comes to elections, and government issues and whatnot. I despise politics with a passion, and generally block it out when it comes on the news. But I am curious, and I am going to vote, if only because I would feel guilty for being part of my generation who have no interest in the government. In my personal opinion (it's that fancy word that I use far too often but I enjoy doing it anyway), I think they should change the way of voting. But for now, I'm going to put a picture in your mind and I want you to try to see it.

A $10 special is something you can get from here in town at one of our many fast food outlets on the main street. It's one of those meals that's just perfect for any occasion and there is always plenty to go around. A big scoop of deep fried chips, a few battered fish, some potato fritters and a few sausages, covered in a large dusting of salt and wrapped in our local newspaper. You can take it anywhere, to the beach, the park, home, add a good helping of good ol' Watties and you're set. There is just nothing better. There are many implications with this meal, you may have guessed a few. There is the coating of salt that could possibly be mistaken for snow it's that thick, there's our local newspaper, complete with black and coloured ink, holding all the hot oily food. Need I mention the potential double dipping of the Watties?! And how about the fact that the servings are not going to be even? There really is a lot to think about.

Now imagine four friends, sitting at a picnic table on the grassy verge near some sand dunes by the beach, they are all quite unique in their thinking patterns, which I'm about to describe. The first guy just digs in, he's so jolly hungry he doesn't look back.
     His friend is a little less aggressive, she picks daintily at the meal and would prefer to have her own sauce, but doesn't mention anything for concern of being laughed at. She's a "go with the flow" type of person on most occasions.
     The third is a little bit more considerate, and possibly brings up in conversation what chemicals they could possibly be eating that has leached out of the ink and into the hot oily food. But, once the meal is over, the idea is long forgotten. This sort of thing may flash in his mind every so often, but he's easily distracted by the bigger things - like an empty stomach.
     Finally the fourth friend is very passionate about everything she comes across, she speaks her mind without a filter and does what she likes without fear of judgement. She stops everyone before they begin and makes them portion out the food, and takes the sauce bottle and gets her own because double dipping is disgusting. Not only that but she dusts off as much salt as she possibly can, and makes a mental note to eat a very healthy meal tomorrow with little salt to balance it all out.

Now that you've got that, I want you to think of these four friends as voters. The first guy will probably vote if and when he feels like it, he isn't concerned at all.  The second will probably vote for the same party as her parents. The third will seriously think about what party to vote for, may bring it up in discussion every so often, but will vote for the party he thinks is better for him, and will likely vote for the same party every time. And the fourth will consider all the options, will talk non stop about it right up until election day and will vote for the party that will benefit the entire country the best.

Thinking about these comparisons that I've come up with, I seriously have to wonder on the whole election. Each party is coming up with good ideas and bad ideas, all different. So either way, whoever you vote for is going to have pros and cons, the pros are great and that's what you're actually voting for, and you just have to live with the cons that will come into government too. And when you think about it, the promises a Party makes only ever seem to come into play on their last year anyway! It takes two of their three years to put words into action, so what really is the point?! I'm going to mention again, my honest opinion, and that is this: Why aren't we voting for promises, not Parties? Think about it, if every party promised ONE thing, and it was anonymous, it would change a lot of things. Instead of voting for one of the 15 or so Parties, we would vote for one of 15 or so promises/changes. And with electorates, people always seem to vote for the same party relevant person, but if each person was to offer something for that district, again anonymously, then maybe things would be different for better reasons?!
     People are so biased these days, and everything is so confusing, it's no wonder that Generation Y is avoiding voting. All we see on TV is election election election, and this government person did this, and this one did that. It's madness. But, that's just my personal opinion ;)

Tuesday, 9 September 2014


My car has a name now - Christine - from Stephen King. Why, you ask? Well just because she just keeps causing trouble. I dropped her at the auto electrician's yesterday to get the windscreen wipers fixed (Finally). He said she'd be ready by 3pm, so when I came back in and he gave me "the look", I knew things weren't going to plan!! Apparently it's the right part to fix her, it's just that she, literally, won't behave. So there she stayed all night for him to carry on today. Fingers crossed she has sorted out her attitude, because I really can't afford to pay for her appointments...who knows, maybe she likes the guy or something?! *rolls eyes*
     Anywho, I suggested she was Herby - reinCARnated (lol) but Mum has said she's definitely like Christine, so that is her name. At first glance, I couldn't see a Christine in her, but once you take a good look at her behind the scenes, it is definitely obvious.
     I've probably spent up to a grand on her this year...argh

I've made the decision to just bite the bullet and yank out these teeth of mine - don't worry, I won't be doing it myself. Now I'm just waiting on the call from the dentists to tell me when they can fit me in. Ideally, I wouldn't be doing it. It's so jolly expensive! You'd think seeing as it is such a common thing, that there would be SOME form of cheaper option or subsidy or something! But there's not, and thus my uni fund is basically gone :/ And I was doing so well too....Yes, I should be grateful that (generally speaking), I am a healthy individual and don't have many health bills, save for the annual dentist visit and optometrist. I should consider myself more lucky than some, but sometimes I'm just like...yeah...nah...But, it needs doing, so be it. And since I'm finished with work now - apart from helping mum at her job, then it won't affect me too much.

Sunday was true to its name this week, it was absolutely scorching! Dad and Nick spent time working on the spray ute, and I fell asleep in shorts and singlet on the deck. Wow, it was good. We got Dad some cool things for Fathers day, such as five climbing trees/plants. We were at a loss on Saturday as to what we could get him, so when he brought up the subject of planting out the back lawn into a pretty garden, we decided to head to Mitre 10 Mega. Originally we were gonna go for the vouchers, and let him decide. But once we found these plants, we were sold. They've got some pretty gorgeous flowers too; purple; white; orange; pink. The perfect bee attraction.
     Mitre 10 had a huge range of Magnolias' for sale too, leaving me gaping. Back when we lived in Te Awamutu, there was a Magnolia that dominated the front yard - it was gorgeous. Ever since then I've wanted one, but they grow so big! Until now I never realised the colour range you could get!
     We are hopefully buying a small piece of land next to our place, so we have more room for all the farm gear we need, it's still in the beginning stages with the family who own the farm next door. Fingers crossed we get it, and the first tree/s we buy WILL be of the Magnolia species. Then I can really put my mark on this place :D It's weird, I've never felt so attached to a specific tree before...

Cowshed kitty in front of a fire for the first time
Sunday night we went down to the cinemas to watch Into The Storm. It was great! What had me really amused was how the meteorologist in the storm chasing crew had a young daughter - Gracie - who she nicknamed "Little Bug". Back when I still had Tiny, I called her Little Bug. I don't know why, or where it came from, but one day I just called her that and it stuck...so I was amused how this movie had used the same name as my kitten and made me miss her again.
     We've gone nearly a year without our dogs, and it's crazy to say that I no longer miss their presence. I marvel at the quietness without the barking, and how I can not bother going out there, because the chooks can cope without me for a day since they're mostly free range. But with Tiny, I'll always have to wonder what life would be like if I still had her, and it's only in my imagination that I see her at her first Christmas last year.

 I'm looking forward to Christmas this year. It'll be my last Christmas as an 18 year old (no kidding right?) but it'll also be my first Christmas not being a high school kid. You know, some days I get really down and stressed about exams and uni prospects, and am I making the right choices? Then there are days like today, where I just think, you know what - what will happen will happen. I can only control so much, everything else is just what is meant to be and sometimes I can't change that. Instead I've just gotta work with what life throws at me. If I get UE, then hoorah, I'm going to Palmerston North. If I don't, well I'm gonna be pretty darn upset but hey, I'll work around it and figure something out. So right now, I'm happy, I'm going to study really hard and do my best. But after the 20th November, I'm going to forget about it all and move on.
     And a good way to do that, is going to be going into Auckland with Mum after exams are done and staying with my sister for the night. We're going with her to try on her wedding dress again, and to try on my bridesmaid dress and have a girly night, just the three of us. It'll be good.

 Some days I wonder if I could rewind the clock, to the 1st December last year and start again. I would suggest to Mum that we stay home for the day. Tiny may have stayed at home, away from the road, she would've celebrated her first Christmas. From there, I would somehow edit the way I did things last time. Maybe Mum wouldn't have gone through what she did, and Grandad would still be with us. Instead of having a crappy start to the year because of everything that happened, I would be well ahead with school, sitting scholarship exams and everything might've been so much different - but would it have been for the better? Probably not. Sometimes I really wish we could turn back the clock, but all of this would've happened eventually wouldn't it? That's what I've got to remind myself. Everything that will happen, will happen. There's no stopping it.

I think when it comes to next year, instead of walking tentatively down the steps into the pool, the cold water lapping my feet, I think I'm gonna go straight to the deep end and dive in head first, without a doubt to weigh me down. Things might turn out differently that way :)

Thursday, 4 September 2014

I don't know - my newest catch phrase these days....

This past week has been rather interesting. Youth group, hot pools, good old school work, milking over the weekend, Mum and Dad went away for a couple days to Rotorua to see Nana, calves, actually getting to leave the district yesterday to go north and shopping at the Warehouse, being so blaise I didn't even look at price tags (lol), and a quiz night at our local pub/restaurant/bar last night! Busy busy busy.

On Friday the hot pools were great, although much to my surprise, only nine of us went. It was different from the pools we usually go to. I went down one slide - an open one that basically went straight down and bam into the pool at the bottom....it was....not my favourite type of hydroslide! The other one I actually wimped out on, as there were two side by side and they basically twist around each other all the way down - sort of like a corkscrew. That, and the water was ice cold. There was the movie pool, but we couldn't hear the movie - though it was bliss as it was about 48 degrees! :D So, I prefer the pools out towards the west coast, they're simple, but nice.
When Mum heard I'd chickened out on the slide, she said, "and you wanna go sky diving?" Well, yes, I do! Two completely different things. One doesn't involve being in cold water in the dark, twisting around and around and around!

On Friday Mum and Dad went north to pick up some things that Dad had ordered for work, and Mum bought a couple books. One was the most recent from my favourite series by Richelle Mead. I had been planning on reading it after exams in November, so I didn't get distracted, but she got it and said she'd read it anyway. Come Saturday it was pretty crappy, so between milkings Mum convinced me just to relax and read it....so I did. It was finished on Monday morning and I loved it. But now I've gotta wait another year until she finishes the next one... :/
Sunday it was decided that Mum and Dad would shoot down to Rotorua to see Nana, as we haven't seen her in a while, her birthday is coming up and in a couple weeks time Dad would be too busy with crop spraying to take Mum down there. So Nick and I fed both lots of calves Monday and Tuesday, and they got back Tuesday night.
Yesterday we went north, first time for me in weeks. Mum and I just walked the warehouse, had no success in finding some good and not too expensive togs for summer. Looked for some jandals/sandals but that was also a fail. (Mum and I've got weird shaped feet, so finding shoes is difficult). I did however, get a really nice pair of three quarter jeans and top, which I wore last night when we went out.

The quiz night: Awesomeness.
Nick has been planning this for a while. It's an event that our local young farmers club did, at our local restaurant, to raise money for the Westpac rescue helicopter and for a fun night out for them and the community. Nick came up with the idea about a month ago, and went around town and got some amazing sponsors to donate a tonne of prizes for the night. 13 teams of 4-6 people could fit in the restaurant, so Mum, Dad and I made a team with a couple of friends, a heap of the sponsors put in teams, also the guys where Mum feeds calves made a team, plus a heap of random community members made teams too. A couple hours before the quiz the last table was taken, and when the night actually started another team just waltzed on in, even though they hadn't bought a table....lol. So there ended up being 14 teams. It was a really fun night, we won the science and technology category round. The guys who we feed the calves for came second, so they were pretty stoked.
Over $800 was raised for the rescue helicopter, which is really neat! The night was really successful and everyone had heaps of fun...hopefully the town will be talking about it for a while and the Young farmers will hopefully score some new members. Now Mum and Nick have been talking about more events they could do in the future.

Oh yeah! So much excitement in the fact that finally the auto electrician has found the part to fix my windscreen wipers! Yay! They've been, literally, stuck up for weeks. They still work, just stop in the up position right in my window of vision - excellent, no? So next week when I send it in, it'll finally be fixed again! Can't wait!!!

Plans for this week? Nil. Continuing with calf feeding, not for much longer I think - only 8 left to calve and the owner is trying to see whether she will soon be able to cope doing it all herself. So I'll soon be redundant... :( But I'm gonna ask them to give me a yell when they are taken to their runoff, so I can see them let out. There's nothing cooler or sweeter, than seeing my babies let out of the shed and put into a big paddock for the first time, seeing them run around, throwing up their heels...and the coolest thing being is since they won't be my calves anymore, I won't have to worry when I see them fly through all the fences in their excitement :D hehe
Gotta get a heap of school done, I'm stressing out a bit about the workload left to do, and the possibility of failing an exam in November. I don't want the mortification of not getting UE when so many people know I'm intending on uni...also stressing about the idea of uni quite a bit. I've got to finish the accommodation application before the end of this month, and figure out what papers and majors I definitely WANT to do....There's just so much on offer, I just don't know! It's scary to think that what I choose now will create my life for the next 3, 4, 5 years...It's just so much to think about, how will I know I'm making the right decisions?!
Yet my youth leaders tell us, "don't worry too much about exams, and uni etc - you've got the rest of your life, don't stress..." How can one NOT stress?! Argh!